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Artistic Creative Body research

 

              "Dance is lost words still alive."  - Bilonda Bukasa

 

Mission Statement

My research is inspired by a deep desire to understand me in living and my life. Who am I? How can I understand me? Who is me? I think we all are looking somehow for answers and mostly we lock us in categories or accessible identities like I am am mother, father, dentist, artist, worker, I am this astrological sign or that in numerology or this type in human design. I am a very old soul or young soul. I experienced more than once that I hatched into an identity that it was only a stage that I passed. The question Who am I came from many direction towards me and seemed to be central for my development.

I experience our spiritual existence mediated by body. I experience forces running through me that want to express, so I channel them creatively. With this experience I find myself in the lineage of the artists, somanautics and truthseekers. These ones explore, connect and interact universe through my body and/or art. I get in contact with those forces. I want to meet them like persons that I did not know before. They have a voice, they have a body, they are here for a reason.

I feel a vibration between me and universe that guides me. I call this vibration love. It is an energy. Energy is an unpersonal spirit. You may call it different.

I deeply trust the wisdom of the body, because she (my body for this incarnation) is so much older than my conscious mind is. She inherits so many ancestors. I embody their strengths and strong weaknesses. I also embody a historical narrative. I also embody the love of my parents and their parents and so on... If I want or not. It is part of the gracefully given life. This imprints can be difficult to handle with.

My body, as part of nature, knows what nature knows and nature knows what the universe knows. I embody in a human body. I identify as female, but my body knows the animal, the elements, and feels deeper sources for living. My soul knows something else. As a human body I felt challenged by having borders... skin, time, nations, reality...  To allow exactly this limitations to be part of living is to surrender to life. I do this journey to bring the spirit of love into all this challenges. I am curious to live in this body and I am researching, what is meaningful to this bodily existence.

 

I include my body to find answers to the questions

WHO AM I? WHERE AM I GOING? And...WITH WHOM?

 

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Körperknast (2011)

Forschungsmedium: Text

Über den Text:

Hält die erste bewusste Erfahrung, dass der verliehene Körper ein Raum ist, mit Grenzen. Ein eigenes Territorium. Das erste Mal ein Gefühl der Seele von Zugehörigkeit. I claim my space. I am.

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Diving into 2:7 (2012 - 2020)

Medium: Film

Length: 6 min.

Text after the realization that "I" own a body that inhabits this earth. This was accompanied by a hitherto unknown sense of raison d'être.

The dance image was created when I was ready to immerse myself in my sadness. It was a step in which I had to overcome a previously great fear. I noticed that I was afraid to drown in my feelings. I did the deep immersion in the soul with soulmate friends. Together we are deeply immersed in our emotional worlds in conversations. The most important discussion partners were Magnus E. Rosengarten (performer), Nicole Sabella (performer, art historian), Anja Jenner (Queenie), Laura Nickel (photographer, model), my mother (Dr. Birgit Bukasa, psychologist). This film shows how I approach femininity and carry myself a little further on the path of healing. Letting go and birth. Dive in and emerge. In the end, a baby screams. ​ Later I found out that in the feelings, a transgenerational sadness was expressed about me. I was also in contact with them afterwards.

Über Diving into 2:7:

Ich träumte von einem Menschen, der mich aus meiner Traurigkeit herausholte, diese Traurigkeit lag in meinem Körper wie einer großer dunkle See. Ein See, den ich nicht ausweinen konnte. Ein See, der nicht austrocknete sondern stumm in mir lag. Also schwimme ich darin. Ich kenne meinen See. Ich tauche tief in meinen See und ohne zu ertrinken. „Nur nicht den Mund öffnen, damit das Wasser mich nicht verschluckt! Aber wie schmeckst du? Wie schmecke ich?...kann man in sich selbst ertrinken oder verdurstet meine Seele, wenn ich nicht einen winzigen Schluck nehme?!...Dunkelblau - Dunkel-blau. „ (Auszug aus Körperknast, 2011)

DT: Das Tanzbild entstand als ich bereit war in meine Traurigkeit einzutauchen. Es war ein Schritt bei dem ich eine zuvor dagewesene große Angst überwinden musste. Ich bemerkte, dass ich Angst hatte in meinen Gefühlen zu ertrinken. Das tiefe Eintauchen in die Seele habe ich mit Seelenverwandten Freunden getan. Zusammen sind wir in Gesprächen tief in unsere Gefühlswelten eingetaucht. Die wichtigsten Gesprächspartner waren dabei Magnus E. Rosengarten (Performer), Nicole Sabella (Performerin, Kunsthistorikerin), Anja Jenner (Queenie), Laura Nickel (Fotografin, Modell), meine Mutter (Dr. Birgit Bukasa, Psychologin).

Dieser Film zeigt wie ich mich der Weiblichkeit nähere, und mich einen Stückchen weiter am Weg der Heilung trägt. Loslassen und Geburt. Eintauchen und Auftauchen. Am Ende Schreit ein Baby.

Später fand ich heraus, dass in den Gefühlen, eine transgenerationale Traurigkeit über mich aus gedrückt wurde. Auch mit der war ich danach in Kontakt.

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ROOTS - Dokumentation (2012 - 2021)

Roots sind drei Improvisations - Kurzfilme, in denen Identität und Aufwachen in Entwicklung erforscht werden. Mit der Kamera dokumentierend wird der aktuelle seelisch - körperliche Zustand durch Präsenz für die Gegenwart sichtbar gemacht und in einer Improvisation ausgedrückt. 

 

Der Körper als Repräsentationsfunktion und Symbolfunktion, in dem sich der Geist als eben nicht abstandslos zum persönlichen Körper, zum kollektiven Körper oder zur Natur versteht (vgl. Merleau-Ponty, 1966:145), sondern kreativ absorbiert.

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Just logistics (2014)

Kooperation mit Josephine Brinkmann

Performance bei der Ausstellung Migration Messages, WUK, Wien

>> Text zur Performance 

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Planzophenomena (2019) / Videoperformance

Performancefigure and -idea at demonstrations against climate change.

My vision saw a resonable group of women that walk and balance plants on their head at friday for future demonstrations. 

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Moyo Mundo Performance (2019)

Dance is lost words still alive.

Was bedeutet es in die Welt zu kommen? Wer bist du bevor deine Mutter dich geboren hat? Kannst du dich lieben lassen? 

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Kontemplation über Balance (2009)

Die Stille dröhnte in meinen Ohren 

Ich will denken dass nichts spricht

Nichts hat nichts zusagen 

Wir schweigen beide

Und hören 

Da meldet sich die Ruhe 

Sie spricht von Gleichgewicht und Leichtigkeit 

Erwähnt Zurückhaltung und Eleganz nicht die Mühen von der Erarbeitung der Erdung.

 

Observations.

Always on the journey,

the mind travels with the easiness of the eagle.

Sharpness is the gift of the creation.

I follow this nation.

 

My life is a dance,

the rhythm comes through the eternal word.

Not every man of god understands

the spiritual meaning of man and woman...

You cannot enter the kingdom of god by using the tools of the world...

 

They tell me turn against my intuition

to legalize their humiliating acts of disrespect.

Spiritually empty words by likewise men...

....have build up this world.

They have build up a human sword.

Willing to separate things

that were meant to be a unity.

That is their cruelty. 

The creation of a system that serves a hierachy of money and power,

ignoring the kingdom of heart and humanity.

Insanity.

Their greed for fuel is destroying the planet.

When thunderstorms come and the flood wipes their houses away,

their hearts will get unlocked.

The wise old man says: "The earth is searching for her balance."

 

 

I woke up and I am not part of your revolution.

The evolution says "surviving of the fittest"

maybe I leave without a dna- copy of me.

but maybe my child will be your savior.

the mother can be the greatest enemy,

because she can give birth to the one who

will change.

 

Claiming my body - over and over again.

My Body is my art

My Body is the playground of peace

My Body is the space for joy

My Body is a room for fight

My Body is my individual experience

My body is the connection to mother earth

My. My. My. My.

    

Conscious.

There was a day when I understood

that I have hidden myself all my life

 

Then I started to uncover and started loving the other......

.....- side of me.

That day everyone could see.

Even me.

I remember a teacher:

she said: Everything you want to hide...

.........will maximize.

Words that have let me paralize.

Thought, that I can get away without showing me all my life!

Who I am, how do I feel and now react

gosh, ideas can trap

Then the real love started to uncover me.

And everyone could see...

...Even me.

...Even me.

08

I am re-born (2022)

The two dancers are both also Somatic Coaches and Creative Mind Coaches, in which context both met . Eva Wieprecht is an established familytherapist of the Virginia Satir teachings and Bilonda Z. Bukasa teaches the embodied philosophy of Yoga and other somatic facilitations since 17 years. Healing and transformation is core to the work of both. The scenery at the ocean and the feminine is not a coincidence but fundamentally to the healing and the ritual. The ocean as the most feminine element on the planet is spiritually the spaceholder for the ritual. The location here at the coast Algarve, South of Portugal, gives a stunning scenery and atmosphere to the improvised dance. The project is a collaboration of with the musician, composer and vocal coach and Creative Mind Coach, Matías Ortolá, from Argentina, who has healing and the spiritual connection in the center of his work.

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Text 2 - poetisch

Wir gingen ins Meer, um neu zu werden.

Ganz so, wie unsere heilende Intuition zu uns sprach.

 

Im Vertrauen von Weiblichkeit und Achtsamkeit verschmolzen die Konturen

der harten Welt.

Mit Sanftmut begegnen sich

zwei Frauen, zwei Geschichten, zwei Heldinnen, zwei Verwundete, zwei Spielgefährtinnen, zwei sich heilend Lebende.

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I am re-born (2022)

The two dancers are both also Somatic Coaches and Creative Mind Coaches, in which context both met . Eva Wieprecht is an established familytherapist of the Virginia Satir teachings and Bilonda Z. Bukasa teaches the embodied philosophy of Yoga and other somatic facilitations since 17 years. Healing and transformation is core to the work of both. The scenery at the ocean and the feminine is not a coincidence but fundamentally to the healing and the ritual. The ocean as the most feminine element on the planet is spiritually the spaceholder for the ritual. The location here at the coast Algarve, South of Portugal, gives a stunning scenery and atmosphere to the improvised dance. The project is a collaboration of with the musician, composer and vocal coach and Creative Mind Coach, Matías Ortolá, from Argentina, who has healing and the spiritual connection in the center of his work.

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Text 2 - poetisch

Wir gingen ins Meer, um neu zu werden.

Ganz so, wie unsere heilende Intuition zu uns sprach.

 

Im Vertrauen von Weiblichkeit und Achtsamkeit verschmolzen die Konturen

der harten Welt.

Mit Sanftmut begegnen sich

zwei Frauen, zwei Geschichten, zwei Heldinnen, zwei Verwundete, zwei Spielgefährtinnen, zwei sich heilend Lebende.